I realize this is a stupid question because life is never easy. It should be more like, "When will we catch a break?" or "When will I finally feel content?". If I'm human in an American society, I will never feel content! It will always be "more, more, more" or "I want what she's having". I get so annoyed with myself.
Yet again, we find ourselves at the possiblity of change and with change comes instability for awhile where I'm continually looking at the future but can hardly stand to be in the present. I get anxious with too many "what-if's" and feel like everything I've been so close to grasping just gets pushed further and further away.
We are at the point in our lives where we will have quite a bit of debt paid off and then my husband decides he's going to apply for a job. A job that is in a different town. Far away. No chance for commuting. At a time where I finally see us being able to get projects started and savings building to the depressing thoughts of moving and selling a house and buying a house and change, change, change. I don't like change.
I find it funny that when I was a kid, I wanted to move from my hometown so badly! I hated Junior High and High School and I thought it would be so amazing to move to a completely different town and start fresh! Now, I dread the thought of ever moving again.
I keep telling myself that there's no use worrying about it now when so far all he's gotten is an interview. I need to quit worrying about the unknown and focus on the now. What can we do now?
Dear God, I give my worries to you. Amen
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